Inevitable Transitions

It's March 23rd, it's been about three weeks since I've made a life changing decision. One in which I chose to sacrifice something, and despite all the pain and heartache it took; i'm finally here. The place in which i've been waiting for for so long. This isn't because of him, but this is because I needed this time for myself for the longest time. I've been contemplating such change for so long and I've been neglecting my thoughts for far too long, i was too afraid to be selfish. I was too focused on satisfying everyone else's needs that I lost myself in the making. 

Every relationship with any person you encounter in life has some kind of meaning. Whether you meet them for a season, a day, a moment or what not... everything is scoped out from this inevitable plan. Never once have I had the courage to do something like this for myself, and to actually draw away from what seemed like the natural right flow of things. I had to do this, I was losing myself and changing into someone I couldn't stand seeing everyday.

These past few weeks have given me a chance to breath and actually think about things, and see everything from a brand new perspective.  I know it took alot to get here, and some of these sacrifices had to include hurting others, but in the long run I know it's the best for all of us. 

Although I'm still learning and yet a lot confused on what's going on in my life, I feel blessed and this great sense of relief that I can finally see things in a different light, set aside from the clouded thoughts of yesterday. I know I still have a lot to learn and this road will not be easy, but with every door has some kind of new opportunity right :) I feel God has so much in store, and I'm soooo excited for him to reveal these things to me! Lord stay with me, I know i've strayed far once again, but I'm willing to make this sacrifice, to get back on track and get it right.