You're probably ready to move, but your ex keeps trying to pull you back into his or her life. There was a reason that you left this relationship behind, and it's probably still a good one. Don't be led astray, only go back on your own accord.
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Time when you get real pleasure from entertaining friends. You will thirst for knowledge. You will know how to catch in flight every possible opportunity.
You will be energetic, solid, resistant, spirited, trustworthy, hardy and resolute. You will be very attracted by a member of the opposite sex. Problems will be resolved with no difficulty, everything will fit into place.
You will feel on top form, take the initiative. There will certainly be a change in your life, a change for the better.
You will be in good health and have lots of vitality. You will feel good. This is a good time for all intellectual work.
You will finally realize your plans, after long and painstaking work, thanks to your patience, to your experience, which you have always known how to use, to your common sense and also because you have never lost sight of your objective.
You will be somewhat wrapped up in yourself. You will very much want to be free and independent. Your emotional life may well be stormy.
You will often be prone to fear, imaginary terrors. Your ideas will be as unsound as your character.
This transit will make you hard and egotistical. You will be easily irritated, your words will be insulting, outrageous and sarcastic. You will live beyond your means.
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If they're really interested, they'll wait. Try to be patient and understanding. Entertainment should include the whole family or a lot of your friends.
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Your personal charm increases now. You tend to take more initiative in teamwork situations. The work that you have done to improve your finances and personal worth over the past year is showing some positive results. With the extra courage that you have now, you can ask for a raise in pay. You can earn more or spend to improve your security and comfort. You will be happy to pay off some of the recently accumulated bills. You give more attention to improving your personal appearance this afternoon as you may try out a new hair cut or list your needs for winter clothes to either purchase or mend or clean. You may seek self-expression through music, or other artistic means. Organizing and decorating and preparing ahead is a theme this day.
Friday, October 9, 2009
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
Today and Tomorrow
Monday, September 7 2009
You are dynamic and self-assertive in professional, social and romantic activities. It's a good time for creating new projects or bringing old ones to an end. Communications are your strong suit--you can say what you think in very clear terms. You may find yourself teaching your methods to others. Your dreams or ideals can now begin to take practical form and application. Old situations are fading away and opportunities present themselves for new adventures. With self-respect and realism, you can be supportive of others and begin to achieve concrete results from your ideas. Your community involvement this evening can make considerable progress. Your vision and psychological insight can be inspiring and therapeutic to yourself and others.
Tuesday, September 8 2009
You have increased self-confidence to try new things that are unusual and inventive. These new matters will help you pursue your goals. It is a time of change, stimulating friends and new acquaintances--favorable for enterprises in the technology and entertainment fields. Anything new or beneficial begun now, will have a positive end. You tend to be highly idealistic in your romantic life. You may unrealistically bestow your affection on the wrong people. Your intuitive, psychic abilities are stimulated. You are especially sensitive to beauty, art and music. This afternoon is a good time for community involvement--you tend to feel charitable and considerate of those who are less fortunate.
You are dynamic and self-assertive in professional, social and romantic activities. It's a good time for creating new projects or bringing old ones to an end. Communications are your strong suit--you can say what you think in very clear terms. You may find yourself teaching your methods to others. Your dreams or ideals can now begin to take practical form and application. Old situations are fading away and opportunities present themselves for new adventures. With self-respect and realism, you can be supportive of others and begin to achieve concrete results from your ideas. Your community involvement this evening can make considerable progress. Your vision and psychological insight can be inspiring and therapeutic to yourself and others.
Tuesday, September 8 2009
You have increased self-confidence to try new things that are unusual and inventive. These new matters will help you pursue your goals. It is a time of change, stimulating friends and new acquaintances--favorable for enterprises in the technology and entertainment fields. Anything new or beneficial begun now, will have a positive end. You tend to be highly idealistic in your romantic life. You may unrealistically bestow your affection on the wrong people. Your intuitive, psychic abilities are stimulated. You are especially sensitive to beauty, art and music. This afternoon is a good time for community involvement--you tend to feel charitable and considerate of those who are less fortunate.
Friday, August 28, 2009
Aquarius: Daily Horoscope for 28th August 2009
wowieeeeee--------- check this out. my goodness....
You will know how to catch in flight every possible opportunity. You will be very ambitious during this period. You will feel good.
You will have a period when dreams shall be king. A time when distractions and dreams will make you lose contact with reality. You will feel on top form, in good humor without really knowing why.
You will be attracted by an unusual person, whose charm will bewitch you. You will thirst for knowledge. Everything depends on the position of Saturn in the birth chart.
You will be enthusiastic, frank, sincere, upright. There will certainly be a change in your life, a change for the better.
Period when you will be in top physical shape. You will finally realize your plans, after long and painstaking work, thanks to your patience, to your experience, which you have always known how to use, to your common sense and also because you have never lost sight of your objective.
You will be energetic, full of go.
(however this part seems very out of place... =p)
You will often be prone to fear, imaginary terrors. You will be tormented, melancholy, menaced, overwhelmed by an inexplicable dark feeling that something awful is going to happen. You will be disturbed, upset, troubled and tormented.
Time when love life is not going well.
You will know how to catch in flight every possible opportunity. You will be very ambitious during this period. You will feel good.
You will have a period when dreams shall be king. A time when distractions and dreams will make you lose contact with reality. You will feel on top form, in good humor without really knowing why.
You will be attracted by an unusual person, whose charm will bewitch you. You will thirst for knowledge. Everything depends on the position of Saturn in the birth chart.
You will be enthusiastic, frank, sincere, upright. There will certainly be a change in your life, a change for the better.
Period when you will be in top physical shape. You will finally realize your plans, after long and painstaking work, thanks to your patience, to your experience, which you have always known how to use, to your common sense and also because you have never lost sight of your objective.
You will be energetic, full of go.
(however this part seems very out of place... =p)
You will often be prone to fear, imaginary terrors. You will be tormented, melancholy, menaced, overwhelmed by an inexplicable dark feeling that something awful is going to happen. You will be disturbed, upset, troubled and tormented.
Time when love life is not going well.
Thursday, August 13, 2009
D > Disappointment, Dissociate, inDifference.
So lately i've been feeling very on and off. So much stuff has been going on in my head mentally and so much going on with my body physically. I've thought about it once or twice. the reality of the recurring cancer, and the realistic statistic that ovarian cancer is one of the most likely in recurring. I have even recently read articles on it recurring, awakening better yet, even after 10 years. This year September 2009 will date it as 7 years survived i guess. But reading the words that a Doctor avoids saying "You are cured" because the actuality of it all is that you are never really cured. Sometimes it's just asleep. There is always that possibility that it will return. And I wonder. with all the changes, the differences I've noticed in my health and the physical and i worry. For the past few years, maybe since 2006 or 2007 my health has elevated to a negative... lol does that make sense. a negative thing... it has become more and more frequent, of feeling fatigued, sick, random and sporadic pains and worries. And more and more different things being wrong, and because for the last few years it has become a normal thing for me, but elevating... i never really think to compare to before. I remember when i first got sick, yes i was down and out, yes I was physically down, but after awhile i was still ok, but now it seems like these little chronic health complications are just holding me back more and more. What am i supposed to think, how am i supposed to feel? I've been MIA from life because of this and people worry. And i'm jealous of everyone who is able to live their normal lives, with their guilt free healthiness! :/ ugggh. I know, i'm not trying to spite everyone else who isn't experiencing this, but at the same time.. i am a bit. It's hard living this way. Yes it's moderately normal, but i'm sure you don't have second thoughts about the things that you feel, the pain you endure, the emotions you encounter. You don't understand how it is to have survived, and still lived, but yet.. still dying. Everytime i think of all of this, i think of Johnny Lang's Dying to live... he states, why are we dying to live, if were just living to die. Sometimes I take that into consideration with my life. Everything is IRATIK right, who know's what tomorrow will bring. Yes you can say it's bad, but would it be fair to be cut off as well, after working so hard. It's like what are we working so hard for. It sucks i tell you that alot of times the world revolves around money, everything revolves around money.. living revolves around it. You'd think we'd be alot happier. But who knows right.
It's been so long, sometimes I swear I don't know what normal is anymore, all i have to accept is that this is MY NORMAL. and how is that fair? That what i'm encountering everyday holds me back, that i can't enjoy the beautiful things in life, because i'm always too afraid of something just merely ruining it. Maybe you'll just say I'm living in fear, but until you've been in my shoes. Then you tell me what's good. Cause quite frankly I don't know anymore.
I would love to be able to do certain things, but I swear that this iratik health complication... though minor i'd rate it.. would most definately be different for a normal person. My pain i swear, the pain levels, i endure, to a normal person, probably couldn't endure, but because I am so used to pain, I am not sure if my 6 is a 8 to you, or a 3 is a 5...
My life is full of dreams, I've been told to have so much potential. I love my life, i love living, I love the things of this world. and the happiness. the option to be happy.
But lately i feel i have been falling short. I realize that in the last few jobs I have also had, my health has withered a bit, and i have become somewhat sketchy and unreliable... i wasn't always like this, i had more strength, even after the chemo. i was stronger, i did a lot of things, even with my social life, i was out there more, i lived, and i wasn't afraid, but i guess it's true what they say, even if you've survived cancer, and you were strong and resilient inititally, chances are, the second time around you might not be able to cut it as much as you did the first.
When i found out i had cancer in 2002, i was surprised, after undergoing surgery, they had overlooked the mass and had said it was benign (non-cancerous) but a short while after they had diagnosed me with cancer, and i took it pretty well considering i had just been told i had cancer. funny thing is that all i was worried about at the moment was being able to graduate, missing 2 months of schooling.. that and the wonder of whether i'd ever have children.
They told me i would, but sometimes i still wonder. They say ovarian cancer is the most likely to recur in cancer patients, and if it were to recur in the same place, so god help me, i can't not have children.
So many thoughts, so many changes, so much has been going on within me. Despite the fact that I go nowhere and practically dissociate myself from everyone and am totally indifferent to the world and my responsibilities sometimes.. there has been alot going on. and at the age of 23, i am quite disappointed in myself , and the fact that i am held back by emotional relations, all in which i wonder could be attached to the physical. But despite everything, i am happy.
i guess i'll never reall know.
It's been so long, sometimes I swear I don't know what normal is anymore, all i have to accept is that this is MY NORMAL. and how is that fair? That what i'm encountering everyday holds me back, that i can't enjoy the beautiful things in life, because i'm always too afraid of something just merely ruining it. Maybe you'll just say I'm living in fear, but until you've been in my shoes. Then you tell me what's good. Cause quite frankly I don't know anymore.
I would love to be able to do certain things, but I swear that this iratik health complication... though minor i'd rate it.. would most definately be different for a normal person. My pain i swear, the pain levels, i endure, to a normal person, probably couldn't endure, but because I am so used to pain, I am not sure if my 6 is a 8 to you, or a 3 is a 5...
My life is full of dreams, I've been told to have so much potential. I love my life, i love living, I love the things of this world. and the happiness. the option to be happy.
But lately i feel i have been falling short. I realize that in the last few jobs I have also had, my health has withered a bit, and i have become somewhat sketchy and unreliable... i wasn't always like this, i had more strength, even after the chemo. i was stronger, i did a lot of things, even with my social life, i was out there more, i lived, and i wasn't afraid, but i guess it's true what they say, even if you've survived cancer, and you were strong and resilient inititally, chances are, the second time around you might not be able to cut it as much as you did the first.
When i found out i had cancer in 2002, i was surprised, after undergoing surgery, they had overlooked the mass and had said it was benign (non-cancerous) but a short while after they had diagnosed me with cancer, and i took it pretty well considering i had just been told i had cancer. funny thing is that all i was worried about at the moment was being able to graduate, missing 2 months of schooling.. that and the wonder of whether i'd ever have children.
They told me i would, but sometimes i still wonder. They say ovarian cancer is the most likely to recur in cancer patients, and if it were to recur in the same place, so god help me, i can't not have children.
So many thoughts, so many changes, so much has been going on within me. Despite the fact that I go nowhere and practically dissociate myself from everyone and am totally indifferent to the world and my responsibilities sometimes.. there has been alot going on. and at the age of 23, i am quite disappointed in myself , and the fact that i am held back by emotional relations, all in which i wonder could be attached to the physical. But despite everything, i am happy.
i guess i'll never reall know.
Thursday, July 9, 2009
3 at night captures.
i was gonna tap out at 12 tonight, my body was ready. but i guess i decided to let my insecure mind capture me instead...
oh woe is me, for i dare not share what is in my heart in fear of losing myself. For why are we woman so vulnerable, so emotional. so targeted...
for my mind couldn't rest tonight and i just couldn't dare to not record my thoughts.
for they spilled out like water overflowing from an endless faucet of supressed emotions. this is me.
so why is it that i'm feeling this tonight. hypothetically she said.. "why am i not good enough..." why is it that everything has to matter. why do we worry about being perfect. or at the very least their idea of perfect. why do we muster up these feelings of jealousy and saddness for no reason whatsoever but to bring ourselves down.
oh you don' t know how i feel. you don't know what i think. you can't imagine the things i lead myself to believe. All because i let you pull me down, way down. Beyond your reach, further than you could ever expect of me.
Or could you, could you dear stranger. With your high expectations and your shallow needs. This hypothetical stranger, you pull me down. Why is there a need for us to be perfect, to fit the physical ideal of your perfect dream girl.
From the hair to the eyes, the lips, to the legs, to the body to the everything... everything i swear. these insecurities i feel. how can i ever feel beautiful. how will i ever feel safe. how will i ever move on.
you don't understand what damage you strangers can do. oh you don't know me. you know nothing but the visual exterior of this body. you know nothing of what lies within which to some may make me even more beautiful than before, because why. because to you, this is standard. when standards are just physical and cut off from the connection to personality and mere connection between two human beings.
why do i feel this way tonight? i don't know. maybe i've just come to a realization. maybe i have been let down by love. maybe i feel insecure and pegged for the worst. who am i to know what runs through your mind strangers.
what is it. does all of this really matter, the physicalities of a woman. does it all matter, does it add or minus from the connection or the feelings that were felt. if it is true, then why bother at all. just judge upon that if you will use that as a downfall.
what is all of this. as i ramble on and on about nothing and everything. struck down and i am out. out of it all. such prince charmings do not exist, but mere temporary charmers out to get you. out to find temporary happiness. and then keep you at a distance. a just in case type of thing.
oh i am lost in this sea of thoughts and emptiness. it actually sickens me to read the book i started awhile ago, cause i cannot swallow the words i read. word for word and i feel terrible, disgusted, unworthy.
to be apart of a world that isn't your own. i give it up. cause everything is a dream and it would all hurt too much.
oh woe is me, for i dare not share what is in my heart in fear of losing myself. For why are we woman so vulnerable, so emotional. so targeted...
for my mind couldn't rest tonight and i just couldn't dare to not record my thoughts.
for they spilled out like water overflowing from an endless faucet of supressed emotions. this is me.
so why is it that i'm feeling this tonight. hypothetically she said.. "why am i not good enough..." why is it that everything has to matter. why do we worry about being perfect. or at the very least their idea of perfect. why do we muster up these feelings of jealousy and saddness for no reason whatsoever but to bring ourselves down.
oh you don' t know how i feel. you don't know what i think. you can't imagine the things i lead myself to believe. All because i let you pull me down, way down. Beyond your reach, further than you could ever expect of me.
Or could you, could you dear stranger. With your high expectations and your shallow needs. This hypothetical stranger, you pull me down. Why is there a need for us to be perfect, to fit the physical ideal of your perfect dream girl.
From the hair to the eyes, the lips, to the legs, to the body to the everything... everything i swear. these insecurities i feel. how can i ever feel beautiful. how will i ever feel safe. how will i ever move on.
you don't understand what damage you strangers can do. oh you don't know me. you know nothing but the visual exterior of this body. you know nothing of what lies within which to some may make me even more beautiful than before, because why. because to you, this is standard. when standards are just physical and cut off from the connection to personality and mere connection between two human beings.
why do i feel this way tonight? i don't know. maybe i've just come to a realization. maybe i have been let down by love. maybe i feel insecure and pegged for the worst. who am i to know what runs through your mind strangers.
what is it. does all of this really matter, the physicalities of a woman. does it all matter, does it add or minus from the connection or the feelings that were felt. if it is true, then why bother at all. just judge upon that if you will use that as a downfall.
what is all of this. as i ramble on and on about nothing and everything. struck down and i am out. out of it all. such prince charmings do not exist, but mere temporary charmers out to get you. out to find temporary happiness. and then keep you at a distance. a just in case type of thing.
oh i am lost in this sea of thoughts and emptiness. it actually sickens me to read the book i started awhile ago, cause i cannot swallow the words i read. word for word and i feel terrible, disgusted, unworthy.
to be apart of a world that isn't your own. i give it up. cause everything is a dream and it would all hurt too much.
Today's Daily Horoscope!
Thursday, July 9 2009 Aquarious Daily Horoscope
This is a great time to be with others, in any sort of group situation. If you are working, the day should go along quite well. You have a sense of true understanding and real sacrifice to devote toward worthwhile projects. Dedicated to long-range goals, you are future-oriented. Intuitive, you have an inner drive for all that is psychological, religious and mystical. You may find yourself, not necessarily an advisor, but a gatherer of people's experiences today. You will be listening, as usual, to all sorts of information regarding relationships, progress and positive outcomes. Since you are artistic, you might consider taking a class in some new creative skill. Considering your ability to adapt to what is expected of you, you should do quite well.
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So right on.
This is a great time to be with others, in any sort of group situation. If you are working, the day should go along quite well. You have a sense of true understanding and real sacrifice to devote toward worthwhile projects. Dedicated to long-range goals, you are future-oriented. Intuitive, you have an inner drive for all that is psychological, religious and mystical. You may find yourself, not necessarily an advisor, but a gatherer of people's experiences today. You will be listening, as usual, to all sorts of information regarding relationships, progress and positive outcomes. Since you are artistic, you might consider taking a class in some new creative skill. Considering your ability to adapt to what is expected of you, you should do quite well.
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So right on.
Monday, May 25, 2009
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